Saturday, January 22, 2011
Ok guys,I'd like to make this very clear.
I'm not barney,nor do I have any utmost desire to live the extremely shallow and empty life he does.
I'm not shallow,nor do I view girls as objects.Sometimes you guys might feel offended when I might view girls as objects,or when I'm like saying I talk to this girl or another.I'm NOT trying to show off.I just relapse into talking about it because,as we all know,I'm not like you guys.I'm not muscular,or poetic,or able to dance till girls beg you to take them,or write entertaining,amazing blogposts.I can't connect with people from every single clique,or social class or whatever. I'm just ME.
I'm not an expert or anything,i just do what everybody does.When I occasionally view girls as objects,its probably because I was really hurt by one,and I can't really bring myself to believe in love,or affection,or whatever.
I know you guys might not feel that I tell you everything,but that's because..I don't want you to lose you guys.I'm afraid opening up the darkest pits of my soul and baring it for all to see is just too much.I'd rather have every second I spend with you guys a fun,joyous happy occasion,then have times where we argue,or fight,or you get scared or repulsed by things I might think off.In all honesty,I'm not a good person.I've dreamed of doing things that border on psychotic,things that are really well..evil.
Look,dude,you were like the first friend,the first person to ever care about me.I'm immensely grateful for that.In my life,you live on a pedestal so high,only my parents are higher than you sometimes.To think that the playacting has come to the point where it irritates you,proves that its time to stop.I guess I may not have talked about all that.I may not be a marshall,or a ted.But I NEVER WANT TO BE BARNEY.And only I know how alone he must feel.
posted at [6:04 AM]
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Sunday, December 19, 2010
நட்பின் ஒளி,
கோபத்தின் நிழல்,
பிரிந்துபோனதன் வலி,
தனிமையில் கதறும் குரல்,
இதுதானா ஏன் கதி?
இல்லை வாழ்கையின் மாயமா?
உன் நட்பு
என் வாழ்கையில் தேவையான இனிப்பு
திரும்பி வருவாயா?
சோகத்தில் துடிக்கும் ஆண்
உன்முன் கெஞ்சுகிறேன் நான்
மன்னிப்பாயா?
posted at [5:52 AM]
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Hi.
After a LOOOONG abscence,I'm back(I guess).Well,the O levels are near.As near as..Holland was to the World cup?Or smth.Well,the main reason I came here was to well,say something that's been on my mind for the past couple of days,something I just can't tell anybody.And I need to say it:Somewhere,somehow.So here it is.
It's like square one,
Rediscovering you once again,
But now somehow,
There's no pain,
nothing to gain.
I've come to accept,
that our lives are entwined,
as much as light and dark;
As much as good and evil.
I will never be complete without you,
For in me lives a part of you,
And in you lives a part of me.
And right then,
At that instant,
I knew,
That if I were to ever love,
It would only be you.
I've never felt this way to other girls before.
I can't.
I can't bring out that feeling.
I can't love anyone else.
I will forever wait.
I may get hurt all over again,
But every step is worth it,
For every step I walk,
You're there by my side.
With You by my side,
I feel like Superman,
Like I can take on the world myself,
And for you,
I'll be Permanently Patient.
posted at [8:19 AM]
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posted at [6:45 AM]
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Sian.
I know there's something wrong.
But I'm not bothered already.
As the circle breaks,
and I'm left standing,
I know,
that I never truly belonged.
But I learnt life.
I learnt things that I never would have.
But hopefully,
It comes to an end,
and we can start over again.
posted at [6:14 AM]
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Friday, February 12, 2010
It has come full circle.
All the time,
I can never escape who I am,
No matter what,
No matter how hard I try,
I'll always be at the bottom of the food chain.
But strangely,
I'm happier.
Life is'nt about popularity,
Or flirting,
Or toying around.
It does not matter how many friends you have,
But how many truly are your friends,
and it is with these friends,
that you should shape your destiny,
venturing into the unknown.Labels: I envy Spiderman
posted at [9:32 PM]
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Thursday, December 31, 2009
HI.Only 4hrs 54 mins left till O level year.Let's break it down:
-School
-Friends
1st:School.Okay,I basically screwed this year.Big time.Through all the pepsi-drinking and stoning into space,I kinda zonked out during almost every lesson(damn i'm dying for a pepsi).This,I think ,was kinda of a attitude moving foward from last year. So,It's now time to do it.Studying.After 3 years of not doing it.hmm...3/3?If you really wanna know what I think,I don't fit in.Not truly.I sort of drift here and there.Hopefully i can stay rooted somewhere.But apart from that,I sincere ly wanna thank the whole of 3/3 for setting up and attending the Birthday Buffet.THANKS!No oe has ever done that for me before.
2nd:Friends.This year,I grew closer with some(Tabitha)and drifted apart with some(..)Well,No one is perfect.And No one gets what they always want I guess..Well,this year,I have to groups of people to thank especially.1st:Ryofred and Stephanie.I don't know how to say this properly,but the 2 of you are like the older siblings I never had.I REALLY enjoyed all the time we spent together,good and bad.The two of you sorta make me HARRY POTTER.HAHA.Seriously,You guys are like..thepeople i really enjoy hanging out with.Next,The next group:MY BROTHERS FROM OTHER MOTHERS!!Nic,XM and Jerome!ROCK ON DUDES!All the times we hung out together and our star wars geekiness.IT ALL ROCKS.(P.S.NEXT YEAR:IRON MAN 2!)I'd also like to thank the following (new )groups of people who made my "year":
-Jaini
I know that I always call you clone of my cousin or smth,but I think you're a seriously cool dudette with awesome music tastes and I dig hanging out with you.
-Pei Jun and Huiling
You guys are sorta the people I talk to.The emotional,fun people.HAHA.THANKS!
-Wei Long
HAHA.OOOH YEAAA.You are the ultimate funseeker.And that is COOL.Really like hangin out with you dude!
-Fadzly
After sitting together for a year bro,I feel like WE'RE CLOSE MAN.I mean,we always talk about .... and all right?So next year,Sit with me can?: )
OKAY.RESOLUTION TIME:
-STUDY
-STILL HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS
-FOCUSSSSS
-DO WELL IN Os
That"s about it.Short and Sweet.HAHAHA
BYe!
[][\/][-]R(working on the r)
posted at [3:06 AM]
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